A ridiculous amount.
I miss sitting close to him on the couch, and just touching him. Or walking around and holding his hand. Or having him walk up behind me and just hold me. I need to be with him. I'm like craving him. We don't need to be doing anything specific I just need to be near him. And now he is 2000+ miles away in Georgia. We're on opposite complete opposite sides of the country and sucks. Luckily, we do text each other quite frequently but that just isn't cutting it. I need to feel his embrace.
Jessica showed me this wonderful song tonight, "Vanilla Twilight" by Owl City and it is EXACTLY how I am feeling. Here are the lyrics:
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here
I always think of him tonight...and all day. I am seriously considering going out there in January and I am pretty hopeful that it'll happen. Flights aren't that expencive and I have nothing better to do. Plus, by then, I'll really need him.
Ah, I guess I just needed to vent a little bit?
Time for bed... :)
oh danielle! I feel the exact same way! don't feel sad..... You should go out there if you can! And call him. just to hear his voice! I love you! You know I am here if you need to vent. I am just a phone call away! I love you!!!
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