No Hope, No Love, No Glory

Well, I really don't want to do homework. So instead of sitting here typing up my homework, I'm going to blog since its what I do in my spare time.

I just took my Geography final. That was an experience. I didn't really feel like studying for it last night so I didn't. I also don't really care about my grade all that much in that class. Its not going to change a whole lot based on what I got on the final today. So I just took it and didn't really care about what happened. Which is lucky because I doubt I did better than a 70% or so on it. :/

It really hit me last night as I was walking back from the library that I'm leaving on Friday. I just felt like crying but I couldn't. I'm sure it'll come soon enough though. I can't even comprehend what I'm going to do with my life for 4 months while I'm back home and I am somewhat considering staying here although such last minute, I know it wouldn't be a good idea. So I'm going home. I'm leaving school and my roommates and my boyfriends to sit in California for four months and hopefully make a little bit of money. I guess the positive of this is not having to deal with the horrible Iceburg, I mean Rexburg, winter. Its also funny because my whole family knows I'm not looking forward to coming home so I feel a little bit bad. Actually, I'm excited to go home a little bit. I'll get to eat real food, talk to Nicole on the phone, drive Cupperton, and see all my friends. Its just going to suck when they all go back to school.

I have 3 more classes and one more test and then I'm done with school until April 20th. How ridiculous.

In other news, Josh and I decided last week that we were going to break up this week before we both left. And I've been getting more and more depressed when I think about it because I don't want to. I don't know if our other options are better but I just feel like they would be. So we're going to have a little chat in a few minutes and re-evaluate our relationship and I am pretty dang positive that we're going to keep dating over winter. But I guess we'll see? Things would feel so much better if we didn't just break up because we thought we had to.

I got a letter from Nicole yesterday. AND I got an email. Ah, I miss her. But I know that she is doing the Lord's work so its okay. And I know that she'll be home in 15 months or so and that seems crazy to me that she's already been our 3 months. (Her 3 month mark is tomorrow, the 16th). It feels like she's been gone for so much longer. Her letters are just so precious. I feel like she says essentially the same things in all her letters but they vary a little bit. Its funny. And she thinks my letters are really random. Well, what does she expect? I feel horrible though because I haven't written her in so long (I think its been a week.) Hopefully I'll be able to write one today and then make sure it goes out with the mail tomorrow. I can't believe that its almost Christmas and that we get to talk to her on the phone soon! I've been looking forward to it for weekssss and its next week!

I guess I should go and get some homework done... even though I really don't want to...